Please Reblog! I know I haven't been on here in forever, I suck and so much crazy shit has happened and I wish I wrote about it.

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5 days in.

Sorry it's been a while, things got super busy but I really wish I had blogged every night I have been here because so much has happened. I'll be back later to right everything I can remember.

7 DAYS.

Today marks one week until I make the big move! It's amazing how quickly the time is going by especially since I have been counting down. I began packing up my clothes today and couldn't help but feel a little sad/weird knowing I was packing up to move away from home for the last time. Once I move to New York it will be about a year until my wedding and after that I will be living with my husband (which is so insane to think about). Mom and I went out about 4pm today to look at a few things I needed to get and stopped on the way out for some dinner. We went to Alivia's Durham Bistro, which is collectively our favorite place to eat. They seriously have some of the best food I have ever put into my mouth. Today I got a salad with artisan greens, egg, bacon, blue cheese, avocado, topped with steak (cooked medium), tossed in a honey tarragon vinaigrette. YUM! I would have taken a picture but I had already gobbled down half of it before I thought about it. After we finished our salad we decided to top it off with a warm brownie and Guinness ice cream (Yes, like the beer). Again I wish I had pictures... oh well! After that we went about our day, on the hunt for some sheets and a mini fridge. We also had to take some of my jeans to the mall to get hemmed before I leave. 

I'm pretty sure the closer we get to my moving date, the my mom's nerves are on end. She is excited for me to move but is incredibly sad to leave me and come back to North Carolina. I, myself am kind of dreading the day my family has to fly back and leave me by myself. Hopefully I will make friends and everything will work itself out!

My sheets I got today :)

8 DAYS.

I have eight days until I make the big move to New York City. I'm really excited and quite nervous, which I have not managed to accept myself ( let alone tell anyone else). The only reason I'm nervous is because I'm moving up there alone and during the past 2 years my ability to socialize and make friends has diminished (along with my self-esteem, healthy eating habits, and other customs of normalcy). I have every intention of trying my best to make friends but I know how socially awkward I am and how easy it is to stay isolated. A big part of this move for me is to change myself for the better so that I can enjoy the wonders of life. I only hope that I can stay motivated and not let triggers send me into a downward spiral. 


This blog will mostly chronicle my move and adjustment to New York City life but will also entail some side posts here and there. I will at some point explain about my disorders so that you all can fully understand what my posts are talking about and the struggles that I'm sure to come.

Photo of the Brooklyn bridge during my pre-move visit :)